Junior's Journal #4: I want to feel pain.

I'm back in this place again: second guessing the direction of my life, and also knowing that I'll never be truly satisfied nor will I never not have regret. I understand that it will never get easy no matter what path I take. No matter what life I choose.

All I know is that I want freedom to live, to create, to heal, and only one path offers me that even if it's just for a while.

Diving into pain is more than 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' . It's 'I can't heal what I don't know hurts".

I'm saying goodbye to possessions and people and relationships, but I'm making a commitment to myself that I will face the broken parts of me and find a way through them. Both are scary. Neither will stop me.

Things on this blog will be changing up soon.

~J.R. Warden